Jordan turned 18 months in November and this is one of my absolute favourite ages! The sweet spot of sorts in between being a baby and a big boy. Learning new things every day, interactive in new ways and still cute when they get up to no good... most of the time ;)
I find it to be a sweet spot of sorts for me, too. Maybe it's the fun developmental stage, or maybe it's a turning point of independence for baby and mama alike. Looking back, I see this stage being the time when I began feeling more myself. Or better yet - like it was the start of a new version of myself.
When Halle turned 18 months, I was already a mom of two! Just the month before, Autumn was born and Halle became a big sister. It's wild having Jordan be at the age and thinking back to then when I had a lively toddler and a baby in tow. Honestly, I found two babies to be more empowering than challenging. I find myself missing those days lately. Call me crazy, but I think my mindset back then had a lot to do with how I handled being a mom of two under two. (And maybe that's what I miss...) Can I also take a minute to acknowledge the fact that young toddlers can not talk back yet!!! Because this most definitely helped my wellbeing as well ;) hehe
Around the time Autumn turned one and a half, I was still at home with the girls. Being a mama and putting family first was very much my main focus but furthering my career was important to me, too. I was also making more time for personal care and realizing it's importance. I started my side hustle designing Keep, I was consistently exercising and running and was in the beginning stages of planning my dayhome. Life was good as it was and there was also things to look forward to. I remember having the same "sweet spot" feeling that's creeping in now. Happy with how things were while also excited for what's to come!
It's important for me to be real and tell you some days lately feel the opposite of sweet. It takes all the energy I have to flip my perspective to positive and grateful. And some days I just can't. I'm learning to be okay with struggling. But I'm also learning I don't need to accept it. Instead, I'm leaning in to those sweet moments even harder and starting to believe now is the time to own that sweetness. Now we climb the mountain after the valley. Now the seasons are changing. Now the sweetness I desire is mine to have. It always has been!
Not sure if these words make sense to anyone but me but I feel so strongly that I am meant to share them to connect others who might feel the same. Others who are struggling, or have been, who are looking for a sweet spot. Who are looking for peace or joy or contentment or healing through whatever they are going through!
I have been clear on wanting to share this for so long, yet sometimes you need to live life's lessons before they are yours to teach. I think reaching this stage with three kids has helped me to recognize patterns in my life. It's making it harder to ignore my inner voice and harder to choose my rational brain which likes to come up with other ideas. Things I should be doing instead of blogging. Things to keep up with. Things accepted by others. The list of things goes on.
And I don't want the things!
I want the sweetness and I want to share it!
Thanks as always for reading XO
PS. Tell me something sweet you want more of in your life :)