I'll start with my ladybug earrings. A pair of studs that were my everyday go-to for the last 5 years! (I mean, as a mama of young girls, studs are a necessity to avoid jewels being ripped from your ears, amiright?) And five years is a substantial amount of time, which clearly makes this pair a favourite. So, when one fell out and I couldn't find it, earlier this summer, I was pretty disappointed. In fact, I haven't worn many earrings since, and that is strange for me... Maybe your thinking 'it's only earrings, what's the big deal?' Maybe I'm looking in to it way too much... But maybe it was a sign that it was time to let the earrings, and other things, go...
I'm in a real transition phase of my life. I've been chasing and working on dreams this year. I began my Keep Collective business as a fun opportunity for me to challenge my personal growth, to connect with others and to earn some extra income. I'm also diving back in to my long term career goals as an early childhood educator and am currently in the approval process of opening a family day home. The changes these passion projects will bring are really exciting! And it's this new stage, that has me thinking, in a way, maybe loosing the ladybugs was a way to move on from past roles and to be open to the new, upcoming ones.
If you're thinking did she really just make that connection? Yes, yes I did. It's because of this other encounter with a real ladybug that got me thinking about it... Noticing how ladybugs have been showing up in my life lately when I'm looking for a sign and working through something lately.
It was a few months in to Keep, enough time to feel the highs and lows of staring a business. A time when I was questioning how I wanted to move forward, especially while working on the start up of my true passion project career dream. Could I manage both? Should Keep be more of a hobby side thing or go all in?
The increasing self doubt was sneaking in to other areas, too. I was questioning my commitment and effort at Run Club. A 12 week fitness program I signed up for with Hot Mama to train for a 10 KM race. It's funny, because prior to starting classes, I was running more regularly than when I was supposed to now that I was following a training plan...
It's like (life's) answers weren't clear, yet I was okay trying not to force anything to happen, and instead let life flow me in the direction I was supposed to follow.
Enter ladybug moment! It happened at Run Club class. As if showing up as the perfect sign I was looking for to stick it out with my plans and goals. A ladybug landed on my water bottle. As I took a drink between intervals, she crawled on to my hand and over my Keep bracelet. I actually had to brush the ladybug off to start the next set. To me, that moment was everything. Something so simple, yet it really did feel like this huge sign that I was in the right place and doing what I should be doing. It gave me motivation to give the workout my all. And it gave me motivation and direction in which to step it up with my Keep Collective business.
My next ladybug run in was not so uplifting. It was about a couple weeks later. I was having an off day, just feeling a bit moody and sort of down. Halle and I were having quiet time, while Autumn napped, and we were painting with watercolours. I felt sort of disconnected while I was painting and stuck in my head. We took a break and went outside on the patio. Between the cracks of the boards Halle spotted a ladybug. Upon closer inspection, we saw that the ladybug was not moving because her wings were stuck out behind her, appearing to be broken.
I assumed she was dead.
Of course, the similarity of this unlucky ladybug situation coupled with my less than happy mood indeed crossed my mind. Ladybugs seemed to be serving up accurate life metaphors...
Halle was really concerned for the bug. I used a stick to move it out of the crack and up on to the level board. She still didn't move. I tried my best to explain what I was seeing Halle. She decided to pick it up and we came back inside. She dropped it on the floor and I asked her to pick it up and put it in the garbage or put it outside.
Then, the ladybug started to crawl!
We were amazed.
We brought it back outside. And honestly in that moment, I felt the same rush of pick me up flow to me! The ladybug was back in the game. It made me genuinely happy.
Outside, she continued to fall in the cracks as she crawled but could not move her wings from trailing behind her. But she kept crawling! Up and down she went. Once again, this seemed like the best sign I could have asked for that day. A message sending just what I needed from another little ladybug.
I'm excited for the next encounter...
But first, a non ladybug sign that happened way too coincidently as I began to type this post. (I actually started this draft last week...) Anyway, I had literally hit the dot to end my very first sentence when my doorbell simultaneously rang! It was a weirdly, cool moment. At the door, was my latest delivery of Keep samples from the Fall Collection. And in that box, was a new pair of stud earrings for me. Knowing that I was about to write the story of my lost ladybug pair, knowing that I was about to share my ladybug "signs," I couldn't help but think this new pair showing up, at that very moment, validated all these events as I interpreted them.
Am I crazy? Maybe. My new earrings are Pave Discs. And this is the product description from Keep Collective:
The Pavé Disc Earrings enable clear thinking and to cast positive energy onto everything around you. Wear these to connect to inner feelings of inclusion and unity.
Perfectly fitting to the situation? I think so ;)